Daddy, Please

The silence is unbearable A ghostly calm before the storm I hear my heartbeat in my head I shiver here, my heart is torn

To live, to die From day to night No one has ever done this thing From death to life To damn, to right Is this the task you ask of me?

You cannot follow where I go To uproot weeds, in fields you've sown How can I live apart from you? My heart is broken, wholly moved

I do not want to be despised By you, my only Father. One Will break in two, before we're through A thought that leaves me terrified

Our Spirit's strong, but I am weak In darkness 'neath the olive trees Can there be found no other way To wipe the debt? To clear their name?

This cup is empty, mine to fill I'm sweating red, great drops that chill Can't stop shaking, Abba, help me! Serpents writhe in the new spring leaves

The lions' mouths are not held back The dogs are loosed, their teeth to gnash Prisoners move to spring the trap Because the light shows what they lack

You taught me from an early age That I would live to see this day But standing on the precipice I have no rest, I'm so afraid

Yet you are here, swirling into The farthest reaches of my mind Come breathe into my heaving chest Our heart to see them come alive

To build, to break From love to hate There is a time for everything From old to new To wait, to do Creation cries out for her King

There's joy that's set before me too When Adam's stain has been removed A pure and healthy, joyful bride Who no longer attempts to hide A woman who takes on our name The hollow feeling turns to flame I've run with you, and now to face The final gauntlet of this race It's worth the pain, worth facing fears They'll see redemption through their tears Eternal life; they'll know us too! They'll be in us, as I'm in you I'll catch her up to meet above Her perfect peace, the source of love

So pull me through, I'm almost there! Further than any man has dared Until the end, the battle won Let not my will, but yours, be done

-Daniel Escobedo